This morning I was getting my kids ready for daycare, and to say the least I was not fully present in the moment, my mind was somewhere else on a conversation I had with someone that didn’t go the way I wanted it to go and to make matters worst, I was running out of time, and kept watching my watch to see if we were going to be ready in time for me to drop them off and still have time to get to work on time and during all of this, my son was busy telling me, as usual, how he doesn’t want to get ready, that he wants to stay home and watch Tv (Paw Patrol) all day, he kept repeating the same sentence ”Daddy, I don’t want to get ready, I want to watch Paw Patrol!” After saying this for what felt like a long time, I uttered these words very loud and angry: “I don’t care what you want, you have to get ready.”
Then I paused and I couldn’t believe what I had just said. He stood there and didn’t say anything else after that, and It broke my heart. If I’m going to be late or having a bad morning, why should he suffer the consequences, or care about what I’m going through? I realized that I was putting my load to him and that It wasn’t fair to him.
Here is to noticing those tiny change I can make to grow as a parent. Now that I know better, I will do better next time!